Who are we?

Posted on May 2nd, 2009 by

Jeff

This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for May 02, 2009:

"I am, you are, we are, all one together, come together right now!"

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Where do you go for help?

Posted on May 7th, 2009 by

Jeff

This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for May 07, 2009:

This sort of works with the question from yesterday about taking risk! Yesterday I had to take a risk and write a blog note on FB about the experience of the blues I was and am having...

I usually go within, and when that is not working for me, I have to reach out to others. and there are not a lot of others in my life, not on the physical plane, internet community's seem to be my source of interaction for the moment....

Yet that is egoic play, it still needs to be done... as a human that I still am, I still need to connect with other human's.

The reaching out for help on FB has been very rewarding, touching, suggestive, and healing....

I am Love, Jeff

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Who heals the healers

Posted on May 7th, 2009 by

Jeff

As I come out of my self imposed isolation, that in the past few days has turned into, depression, sadness, fear, more withdrawal then usual...

The Q&R's of the past few days bought some of this to the fore, with questions like when or what was the last risk you took, and who do you go to when you need help? As well as Carla's discussion or blog on "Melting Hugs". All of this stirred in me my ego's need for physical contact, I know what a Melting Hugs is and have experienced them more then once, offered and received.

As I wrote on my "notes blog" on FB (Facebook) I had spend a few hour last weekend with friends old and new for a gathering of fun and food, in honor of Beltane/May Day. We made fun of each other, took photos, eat too many deserts, laid about, cuddling and massaging each other... while talking, discussing... etc.

Sunday evening the world came crashing down. I realized how much I missed being touched and in the mist of people, for I do not allow myself my interaction with people unless it is from the other side of the camera, as an observer...

I do this because I do not have a regular job, Reiki and Photography do not really pay the bills, afford me to opportunity to just go out and hang... so there has to be a purpose to my activities...

I spend a lot of time reading, sort of meditative, journal writing, offering relationship advise to my friend, as well as guidance as she progresses through her spiritual path. This experience is rewarding in ways that allows me to pull information and experience to coach her through the rough stuff. Which informs me about myself, where I have been and where I am may or may not be going...

I thought I had a path of Reiki and photography, along with Spiritual life Coaching, Environmental Psychology moving in the direction of attraction but it seems to have gotten of track somewhere.

Doubt, trust, lack of Dollars, too many second thoughts keep me from moving forward... or maybe this is the moving forward, maybe this is the light at the end of this tunnel, through the darkness of my emptiness, I have to reach out to the people and events that could and would heal me and farther me on my path...

As my friend wrote, acknowledgement is the first step, admitting and creating the change in thought mind and heart.

Over and over I hear people say, the change is within you, the healing is within you, God's Love is all you need, all lovely and beautiful, I use them myself, yet when the ego/human aspects of our selves need healing, going within, is empty and lonely. Fear rears it's head from baggage I brought from my experience of living in community, where I believe I open myself up and more often then not I was forced to close myself to human contact, or interaction on a more spiritual level. So fear presents its self as trust issues with Men, gay men, or men in general, spiritual people who claim spirituality as their path, yet are far from it.

So I have to take a risk, walk through my fear to co-create new friendships, new bonds with people, men, so that I can heal my broken heart, my bruised soul, and spirit...

I place my self out there by writing on facebook, I place myself out there once again here, to admit, to look through the darkness of my soul, spirit, express to ego that we are still dancing together, that it does not lead the parade, that this is a co-creation one can't dance with out the other.

So who heals the healer, I do. I do with your loving support and encouragement, suggestions, and just knowing you are all there...

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